I've always wanted to be a runner. I've taken up jogging once a financial quarter for the past three years, but I've never gone from being someone who runs to being a runner. You know the type, they wake up early to get their sneakers on, and have a glow that's hard to miss. And they talk about running like it's a friend, not a chore.

I wish I could tell you why I haven't been able to stick with running, but if running is a mental game I just haven't found a way to commit. Between working my job and school and having my blog and creative projects (and being in a relationship & having friends!) I want to wake up early, go for a run and be ready to take on the world! But a lot of the time I can't find enough hours in the day- so much of the time when I try to start running (again), I can't find a comfortable place for it in my day to day. After two weeks of trying, I tend to feel like running will never fit in my life and I go back to something that makes me feel like I'm making progress.

I've been on lots of runs, but my increased heart rate has never changed me. And if there's anything that I'm really bad at it's balance between my body and my brain.

This winter, when we got the treadmill (for the puppies) I knew I had another chance, but more than that I wanted to take the next step from being a repeatedly failing jogger to being A Runner. I kept bumping into women online who were (seemingly) without superpowers but who had made the leap and seemed to be in love with their active lives! And then I tuned into the blogs of a few yoga ladies and the deal was kind of sealed.

Finding a way to get active that energizes me isn't an option anymore, it's mandatory.

But this is the catch: I've never worked with a trainer or worked out in a well rounded way. My story is one of fits and starts, frustration and giving up. I clearly have no idea what plan is right for me, so I need someone else to make that plan. After bothering my friend Lisa a little (thank you, miss!) she pointed me to a training program that had a whole section for beginners!

That counts as a plan- and it's put together by someone who knows what they're doing!!

This week I'm starting to train for my first 5K run and while the distance is short I'm hoping that this will mark a change in my relationship with exercise. I don't want to use it as a means to some kind of end, I want to make it part of my life. This time next year, I want to be looking forward to waking up and getting on the road. I'm not sure when I'll fall in love with running, but between now and then at least I have a plan.

Are you in love with being active? Any tips for someone who's still trying to get there?

I suspect you're all a little endorphin crazed, but I'll listen… ;)