October 6th, 2010
Yes Moments & Daily Wonder
Whenever I come home from being away, I walk in the door of my house and for a moment I can see things with fresh eyes. The little house looks sweet and fresh, and I can see the character features that tend to melt into the background on a normal day. My kitchen is a little larger than I remember it, and the stairs to the second floor (affectionately, “The Granny Killers”) aren’t as steep as they are in my memory, and their quirky turn and tiny window lets the sun in to stroke your hair as you walk up the scuffed white faces of the steps.
In those first five minutes before the house is washed over with routine, I can see it the same way I did when I walked in the front door the very first time, and everything in me responds with a quiet “Yes! This will work. Anything can happen here, I can feel it.”
When I used to work in theatre, I got that feeling all the time. It was hard not to, when what the stage held from night to night would be worlds apart. I would slip out of the offices, away from designing posters and managing social media accounts, and into the big open auditorium that holds the stage- the house. I would start up at the front, in the audience, and walk up towards the back of the house until I was up where the floor was painted black and up close to the stage again, where the floor under me had turned into a metal lighting grid.
From that steep view up above the audience, where the lights hum and you can see the knots that hold up the curtains, everything is possible. I would sit up by the lights and for a few minutes I would have that same moment, where the possibilities for this room and the people connected to it were so unlimited, I couldn’t fathom it for a moment. Like I was in a building full of dreamers and magicians, who could make anything they wanted appear. Like the only answer to everything, was yes.
Trying to get to that moment in the middle of a normal day is tricky. When I’m waiting for the phone to ring, or am dealing with a hard customer, when I’m missing an old friend, or I’m trying to word my next sentence it’s easy to let the possibility of this moment slip by and fade into the background. It’s easy for me to be so wrapped up in my thoughts that I fail to notice this moment is no less special than the ones where the perspective is already laid out for me.
So I’ve been working on my sense of wonder. I’m listening to good council, making beautiful things from nothing with my hands, eating well, encouraging the people around me, and I’m trying to make space for play in between the running around parts of daily life.
It’s a work in progress, but from what I hear it’s the working that counts.
So glad I read this post before I went to bed. I should be asleep! But staying up a little late was just made worth it =-) I love the way you share your heart with us. Thank you, always!
This is a beautifully written post. I have this problem every time I walk into my apartment – I see stuff on the floor, dust, dishes that need to be washed. Rather than a lovely little place I’ve made my home.
This post is simply beautiful and it is something I truly needed to read! Thank you!
I recently stumbled across your blog and I’m so glad that I did. This post is inspiring and beautiful! What a great way to reframe your thoughts : ) I’ll be borrowing some of your tips this weekend!
-Samantha
http://sincerelysamantha.com
I had that same experience on Monday when I got back from visiting my family in Washington. I looked at my apartment and it felt familiar and unfamiliar at the same time. I love those experiences where you transcend the everyday. Not that the everyday is lacking, but just that it’s a beautiful contrast.
How wise you are on so many levels; to be seeking the power of the present moment on your daily life (where else could it possibly be?), to recognize the beauty that exists in the ordinary, to see the world as though through the eyes of a child, with all the wonder that perspective allows, to welcome the life long path that is to know yourself, to write so beautifully and to share your journey so that others may be touched and connected. You inspire!
You have articulated what I have been trying to say for awhile now. <3
That’s such a beautiful post. And what a great reminder, I absolutely need to work on this as well.
I love it when you write these posts, Kyla. They are so inspiring!
One of my favorite things about coming home from trips is like you said; seeing everything in new/different light. Noticing how comfortable your bed really is. Just how cute the dogs are. Certain oddities about one’s house and surroundings you never were aware of before. That’s what makes it home, I guess. And what makes it worth going through all the work days and etc to be able to get back to it.
<3 you!
How I feel going to the movies right now!
This is JUST the post I needed to read today. So lovely, lady. And such perfect and pertinent reminders: be present, be appreciative, work hard, live in this moment and no other.
It’s great that your cherish those moments, because all too often we are in a hurry or we are distracted and we completely forget to take note of a quiet and loving home, or the importance of remembering what is important to us.
Love the images you just created with your words. Beautiful!
I love this post. Finding those moments are so important. These past few months I’ve tried really hard to find little daily wonder moments.
I really love when you write like this, Kyla. You’re quite good at it.
Oh, Kyla, you touched on a subject that is so hard to “put in words”… the different “lenses” through which you can see the world and the moments that you can see through one lens versus another are so fleeting sometimes.
But I believe you can “practice” to alternate between lenses when you want to.
I for sure can relate to this. Ignore that bad grammar, please! I am on a mission to find daily wonder in my own life too. Today, it was driving home from dropping my wife off at work and hearing one of my favorite songs on the radio. At that moment, the traffic, the threatening storm (my car and rain do not get along) I believe in the wonder of the world, and that I can accomplish anything.
I love this post. It’s always important to step back and take a closer look.
That post almost made me cry because I know exactly that feeling! I am in that place right now where I am away from home and that whole feeling of walking into your house I have been missing lately. I am trying to make my new home (apartment) feel the same way and it’s a work in progress!
Thanks for this post! :-)
Oh, I love this post. Lately, I’ve been finding myself cherishing those around me more. This may have to do with fear I’ve been dealing with, but it makes these simple moments I spend with people all the more valuable.
It’s so important to look at the world with a sense of wonder. If we don’t, we lose the magic that can be found in everyday life. One of my favorite quotes is “Wisdom begins in wonder” by Socrates.
So true.
:)
Thank you. What a wonderful post and it reminded me to sit still for a moment and dream. You are such a delight.
That was such a lovely read! I agree that it’s difficult to notice all of life’s little moments, I simply call it the “stop to smell the roses” moments. It’s the moment where you choose to press pause on life and take note of all the little things that make up that second of life.
This was lovely, Kyla!
I love coming home from a trip. Home is so good. I too would like to appreciate the day to day good more as well.
your writing moves me like no one else. i want to print out this whole post and add it to my journal to save forever. you are such a beautiful writer and person. i am honored to know you. :)
I think that finding bits of magic in each day: a new route home, a favorite barista, etc. can make even the most monotonous days better. I love this post, Kyla.
A sense of wonder keeps you young, and that’s never, ever a bad thing.
*sigh* love this. thanks for being you, lady.