October 13th, 2010
Giving Thanks & Protesting Perfect
I have to say, if there’s one thing I was thankful for this Canadian Thanksgiving it was getting A Little Thistle online & the support I’ve had from you guys since it launched! You know when you have an impossible project, and it finally (really) gets done? It’s a feeling you can’t beat. A definite yes moment in my books.
The week before the launch was an emotional roller coaster for me, especially having just been out of town and trying to catch up. You know those days when someone asking “Would you like to meet up for coffee?” can send you teetering over the brink into crying territory, because there’s no more room on your plate? And then you get flustered and angry at yourself for being so upset, because coffee is just coffee and not a life and death scenario? And then you just have to burst out laughing, because you obviously need to put in some work on how you manage stress?
It was one of those weeks. Alternately tearful and filled with laughter, full of late nights and stellar advice from girls who have been there. Topped off with cheeseburger style cupcakes (Oh, I know) and hugs from out of town friends I don’t get to hug nearly enough. It was brilliant in its own imperfect way, because often the best times in life aren’t neat and tidy- they’re downright messy!
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about perfection, not least of all because of this amazing protest against it that I found through one of my favourite blogs, Fat Mum Slim. I love the idea of declaring yourself in a protest against perfect, especially because in the past few years I’ve realized that in my life perfect is a synonym for paralyzed. When I want things to be perfect, nothing ever gets done because nothing is good enough- and what does get done? It’s no fun at all.
So here’s my contribution:
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I have trouble holding back,
I’m hopelessly absent minded,
I’m too eager to please,
I’m stubborn and jump to conclusions.
I worry about things I can’t control,
I say “Things are busy” when I mean “I miss you”,
I say “I miss you” when I mean “I’m scared”,
I’m not good at sticking to my budget,
and I can’t finish a book before it’s due at the library.
And none of those things are going to stop me from loving me. Not even for a moment.
For me, imperfection is about giving myself permission to mess up in abundance and learn at every turn. It’s about being generous with my own imperfect self and the imperfect people around me. It’s about courage, humility, authenticity, and putting the judgment on hold to let grace step in.
I hope you’ll protest with me, I promise that you’re far too interesting a bundle of contradictions to ruin yourself by perfecting it all
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I’ve been inspired to create my own:
http://treasurethememories.blogspot.com/2010/11/perfect-protest.html
xx
Your other blog post was closed to commenting but everything looks amazing, congratulations on setting up everything! I can’t wait to do a little Christmas shopping.
Yes, I know how you feel about being so imperfect. I have these high expectations of myself, but my standards are according to others but in reality, they love me for who I am. We need to see this more.
I’ve just finished study so i am suffering the not having enough to do guilt! Imperfections make us perfect though, surely?
Oh Kyla, I absolutely agree. I am not really a perfectionist except when it comes to certain things so I can imagine how stressful that would be but I think being imperfect is absolutely okay. Imperfection FTW!
This Protest is a wonderful idea!
I might have to steal it & make a list of my own.
Thanks for the inspiration! xo
Ahhhh….llike a breathe of fresh air. You just gave me permission to be myself today and I’ve been needing that lately for some reason. This was great to read.
Thanks for your vulnerability!
Thank you so much for stopping by Rachel! You’re one of my absolute favorite bloggers, your sweet words made my day :)
“For me, imperfection is about giving myself permission to mess up in abundance and learn at every turn. It’s about being generous with my own imperfect self and the imperfect people around me. It’s about courage, humility, authenticity, and putting the judgment on hold to let grace step in.”
A-freaking-men, sister. LOVE IT.
Perfect is boring.
I say that so casually but it’s taken me my entire 26 years to be able to actually mean it.
I like to think of myself as a recovering perfectionist. I allow room for mistakes. Not a lot. I’m still an anal-retentive control freak, but, you know. Baby steps. ;)
I love this idea & will happily join the protest. Unfortunately, I find that too often, now that I’ve moved home, at least, it’s not me who’s my harshest critic anymore, but a few girls I used to be friends with who are harassing me & talking badly about me. I never expected them to be perfect; how can they expect me to be? I wish we’d be more accepting of the flaws of others, to try to understand where they come from or what makes them the way they are. The more understanding we are of our ourselves, so should we try to be more understanding of those around us.
I haven’t ironed in three years, at least.
My library books & movies are always returned late.
I never look fully put together.
I worry too much about what others think.
Sometimes I’m mean just for the sake of it.
I never felt smart enough for D.C.
I question relationships so that I can find ways to sneak out of them.
Feels kinda good, actually.
I love this post. I struggle with perfection – in myself and others. I know exactly what you mean when you say that perfect is a synonym for paralyzed. I find it so difficult to un-stick myself when I get all wrapped up in my version of perfect. One day I’ll learn how to cut myself some slack.
I agree with this so much. I have those days where I feel like I can’t hold up to what everyone else needs from me. It’s part of the reason I don’t feel ready to have kids yet, I can’t even quite handle myself, my wife and my brother. So, I can sympathize with little things pushing you to the breaking part. Perfection isn’t important. Love, talent, inner beauty, grace …those are things that make life worth living. You have those things in spades.
I love the idea of “protesting perfect”. I’ve never been one who sets out to achieve perfection, because I know it’s not attainable. But sometimes, I get down about not being able to achieve it. In some areas of my life, I just WANT IT and the fact that I’m nowhere even close to perfection irritates me. :)
Glad you’re feeling more normal now. And that feeling? That was me all Spring! Been there and it is not a fun place to be. ;)
I totally know that ‘paralyzed’ feeling all too well. I am currently a nervous wreck trying to get all of the LGS stuff wrapped up. Starting up a business–even just an online one–is super time consuming. And our generation simply doesn’t allot ourselves enough time! I’ve been reminding myself a lot lately to just do one thing at a time. Congrats again on ALT<3
I love this post and how you described imperfection. I’ve been learning a lot more about myself lately despite the fact that I’m soo busy now these days and it’s okay to mess up every once a while. <3
This is great!
I love this post and that protesting perfection article was amazing, wasn’t it?!
This post was just what I needed today. First day back from vacation and with an injured foot I’m giving myself a bit of a guilt trip for not getting all the laundry done, going grocery shopping and making a dent in the growing pile of freelance assignments I’ve been accumulating.
I need to remember that sometimes a day in bed with my favourite TV shows is just what I need and not being perfect is OK!
This came at just the right time. I’m a big perfectionist, and I hate it. I’m really bad about letting my fears about not being ‘perfect’ at something keep me from doing it. And it’s so true that being ‘productive’ while seeking perfection is no fun. Thanks for this!
(Also, I’ve switched domains, so now you can find the post with your notebook at http://www.soft-weather.com) :D
Beautiful! Thanks for that. It truly is hard to not try to be “perfect” and then it turns out impossible to achieve and sometimes even counter to what/who we are. Que viva la imperfeccion! :)
girl…your words are just right. i understand how you feel. and i love the protest against perfection idea. i need to do a post about it too…
thanks for sharing who you really are with the world. it helps me be brave about sharing who i am too. <3
Congrats on opening your shop! That is so amazing. Thank you for sharing your imperfections with us. I might do the same on my blog :)
I am totally protesting with you! Last night, things got ugly for my husband. I was a little bit of an overdramatic teenager when I started my downward spiral beginning with “no one reads my blog besides my mom” “I can’t knit well enough to sell any of this on etsy”, “i can’t bake anymore because I’m getting fat”…. and it goes on but I won’t get too far into that….
Anyways, I will protest perfection with you!
Amen. Sometimes I spend too much time thinking of how I want my life to be, I forget to enjoy what I have now. Release worry and embrace imperfection. Can I get that stitch on a pillow?
Great post, thanks!
I totally understand how you feel, and I’ve battled this myself too many times. Hence my favourite quote:
“Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
I can totally relate. I too get that paralyzed feeling sometimes. It feels like there is just so much I want to do and accomplish but fear of failing to be perfect stops me in my tracks. It’s so silly! I think once we just let go and accept and respect our limitations things become so much easier.
XO thanks for the post.
Perfectionism can be a blessing and a curse.
I think it’s totally normal (for some people) to want things to be perfect. That goal in itself is not so bad, but you have to learn how to manage when things don’t always go perfectly. THEN it is time to adjust your attitude and say “Hey, this is totally fine, too” and wouldn’t it be boring if everything was perfect all the time anyway? ;)
i’ve thought about this a lot lately. it’s a wonderful thing to embrace the fact that you are not and never will be perfect–it takes so much pressure off of living your life. however…i still want to reach for perfection. to strive to be the very best that i can be and try my hardest in everything i do–without beating myself up for not always hitting the mark. i feel like i have a lot of friends lately [and like i have struggled with it before too] who either are raging perfectionists or who have gotten pretty slack because they’re “not perfect and never will be so why try.” all of life is about balance i guess.
that being said, i loved this post. i want to link up too. congrats on your shop opening!!!
It’s so funny- because I see the extremes your friends are going to as as sides of the same coin. Either your friends are trying super hard to make things perfect, or they’re giving up because they can’t be perfect.
For me, it’s about what you said, trying as hard as you can, being in earnest and working really hard. I don’t think it’s about lowering your standards, it’s just about not beating yourself up for being human :)
Ohhh love this. Will definitely join you in this – you just gave me an amazing idea for a blog to protest in my own way! Thanks for being imperfect and still being inspiring!
You know I’ve been learning to cut myself some slack lately, and that I can relate. Thanks so much for the encouragement. :)
This entire post makes me want to come to Canada and hug you. Like right now. You’re so adorable and I love all those things about you that are your imperfections. I know that I have them too and I can totally relate to the I miss you/I’m scared/I’m busy thing.
Anyway, thanks for sharing and again, huge congrats on the opening of your shop. You’re amazing & a constant inspiration!
My knee jerk reaction to this is that “I’m not worried about being perfect” and while that’s true in many areas of my life I started thinking about how stressed I get when we might be late for a dinner reservation, or about how I snap at my husband when we’re getting ready to have people over for not caring about the [pointless stuff that doesn’t really matter] as much as I do. I guess that unnecessary desire for perfection sneaks in whether we want it to or not.
I’m so there with you! I try not to go there, but especially because I struggle with anxiety, silly (easily avoided) things like being late can send me into a tail spin. I’m working really hard on just giving myself enough time to do everything I need to do so I don’t feel rushed & get into that head space, but it’s a tricky one to manage :)
YES! to this, just yes. “For me, imperfection is about giving myself permission to mess up in abundance and learn at every turn. It’s about being generous with my own imperfect self and the imperfect people around me. It’s about courage, humility, authenticity, and putting the judgment on hold to let grace step in.”
You are such am amazing person, far too wonderful to be paralyzed by the myth of perfection. All those little imperfections and quirks are why people love you. You’re the first person to extend graciousness to others, sometimes you have to extend that same thought to yourself.
Love you, friend!
I love love love the whole thing that is going on over at Ordinary Courage. Its so, well, encouraging. Its so easy to present someone online that is not the real you, its the you you want people to believe is out there, and its so important when people (like you) have the courage to say, hey you know what? Im so not perfect, but I am me.
Thanks for your post!
Are we on the same wavelength or what?? The closer I get to opening the more of an emotional wreck I’ve become – I feel like I don’t even have a moment to breathe!! And of course all the worries that come with this are swirling around in my head. I just heard about this protest perfection thing – definitely something I need to do!! I keep trying to tell myself…the launch doesn’t need to be perfect! :) Love your list – you’re so honest! Me too – I worry about things out of my control!
Oh Kyla – I have so had that overwhelmed, ‘how could you possibly think I have time for coffee?’ moments… It’s kind of a strange sensation to be so overwhelmed by life that social plans can send you into a tizzy, but I have been there. :S
This is a beautiful post, as usual. As a self proclaimed perfectionist, this is something I have worked on as I have aged. I have worked on lettin go of being perfect – or of putting up a facade of perfection to those around me. So here’s my ode to resisting the temptation to strive for perfection:
I push people away when I really mean, “I need your help and support”
I don’t clean my bathroom sink as often as I should
I use my stubbornness as a shield against letting others in
The only 6 pack I’ll ever have is in my fridge – and it’s 6 pack of Lemonata San Pellegrino, not beer
Happy Wednesday, love!
I like this. Might join the protest over on my blog :)