This weekend was excellent for coffee, tea, and comfort. After weeks of incredibly cold “summer” weather we upgraded to cold and rainy- and I finally surrendered.

If summer wasn’t coming to me, I was going to have a day of Fall comfort.

I waded through the tide of yappy black dogs that live on our main floor, put bananas and chocolate sauce on my waffles, kissed my Mister, made coffee (and thermos after thermos of tea) and went straight back upstairs. I piled all the pillows in the house into the bed, fluffed the blankets and cuddled right back into bed to watch Audrey Hepburn movies all morning.

And then I had a bubble bath.

And then I made cookies, and I may or may not have had a glass of white wine.

And I’m not going to lie- beyond the weather, the sheer volume of change that’s happening right now is finally starting to sink in, and this weekend it laid me out.

It’s been a month since I quit my nightmarish job, and I’m really not working now! My looking around for part time work is going alright, but without a firm YES! or NO! from people it’s hard to feel secure. I’m hoping that by the end of August I’m locked in at a new job.

On a day to day basis, Mister and I are leaning into DIY projects around the house in the kitchen and mudroom that have me totally fired up, I’m reading and am trying new recipes (I made home made pizza this weekend!!!) all the time, and it all feels like my life is on the verge of changing directions again.

There’s a lot of hope and a lot of nerves. A lot of waiting, and a little white wine.

For the first time since moving into our first home, getting married, and starting in on this new phase of life I can say with total certainty that I don’t know how life will look in a year, and I don’t know how I want it to look. So I’m going to try to let it develop as it will- because no matter how many decisions I make or how I plan it seems that it’s up to chance, hope, and timing to determine how this all plays out. And I’m excited to see what opportunities they help me pounce on.

Times are definitely changing as of the end of this summer, but I know that it’s for the best and that when I have my doubts there’s always Audrey Hepburn. No matter how my life changes, she is delightfully charming and constant, just how breakfast in bed on a rainy day should be.

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